Sometimes things happen that you just don’t understand. Just when you think everything is just as it should be, something gets in the ways and messes it up. It can only mean one thing!!

SATAN sees that you are trying to live for God the way you should be and he just can’t stand it. Satan looks at you and says to himself, “How dare you follow and obey the Lord, when you can do my work and have everything you ever dreamed of.”

God tests us to see how faithful and committed we are to him. That is where Satan comes in to try to say to you, “Why has God forsaken you?”

What we as christians have to realize is that God does not forsake us. We tell Him we love Him and will honor Him. Sometimes He just wants proof. He died so that we may live again. He died for our sins. Doesn’t he have the right to test us to see how we are going to trust and obey his every word. We owe Him more that we can possibly give.

A wise woman named Terri told me today that if you are without trials and tribulations then you are not living the way God wants you to live. If the devil is not trying to get at you, then he already has you. Which makes perfect sense to me.

I for one welcome the trials and tribulation because it lets me know that I am doing what the Lord wants me to don and that I am living for God the way I should.

I want to praise God in front of all of those that are reading this for dying for me and that I am able to go through hard times just so the devil will know the Lord my God has my heart and there will NEVER be any room for Satan in nothing that I do.

Amen

Sometimes things dont work out the way you want them to. Then you look to your left and look to your right and see that others have all the things you have been praying for. You are tempted to ask God why is it that people that live in the flesh and not in the holy spirit get all the things that your heart desires and you are living in the holy spirit and you struggle.

If you have ever felt this way, know this: Not all blessing are of God. Some people have things because they are letting the devil use them. Think about it, people sell drugs, gamble and do a lot of different things that are not pleasing to God. I want to share this wisdom with all who may read this because I have been feeling like that lately.

I have done a lot of praying and I have realized that I would rather have God’s love than any material possesion. There has been several instances where I have been mistreated and people I love have done me wrong in order to get what they want or to serve their own agenda. I read in the Bible that God will restore what the enemy has stolen and he will use the enemy bless you in front of your enemies and make them your footstool. He (God) will work on your behalf. Ain’t God wonderful?!!

So I will live everyday for God and trust in his every word and my blessings and life will be everlasting. Let me know what you think.

I am at home with family since I got laid off for being sick. I had to have a blood transfusion There is no other place I’d rather be that with my son.

I remember a few months ago I asked my son a series of questions. I asked him,

“Logan, do you love your mama?” He said, “Yes.”

“Am I a good mother to you?” He said, “Yes.”

“Do I do right by you?” He said, “Yes.”

“Do I take good care of you?” He said, “Yes”

Then I asked him, “Logan, are you just saying yes because I am asking you these questions?” He said, “Yes, because you are my mommy and I love you.”

My husband tells me he loves me everyday. My family and friends tell me they love me when they talk to me.

I love all of them dearly, but there is nothing like having someone that you carried for nine months and spend fifteen hour of labor giving birth to telling you that they love you. Not only do our babies tell us they us, they also show us by making us gifts in school, and giving us hugs and kisses.

The most precious gift in the world is the bond between a mother and her child or a father and his child. I know it is not always easy because I was once a single mother, but I thank God for every precious moment he has blessed me with my son. I praise Him for the future precious moments me and my son will be blessed with.

Every now and then  I get a chance to watch a little of the Maury show. It usually about the same thing…paternity test. You see woman or young girl come out and talk about how sorry the man is and how they don’t do anything for the baby. Outside of television, a lot of women go around talking about a “sorry ass man” that left them when they got pregnant or shortly after the baby was born. I would like to pass on wisdom that I picked up when I was a single mom. KEEP IN MIND THAT I AM NOT TRYING TO MAKE ANYONE MAD, AND I AM CERTAINLY NOT JUDGING ANYONE. I have been there done that got the t-shirt and errthang. I am the posterchild for single and pregnant. LOL! I hope you have a minute. Here goes:

First and foremost, KEEP YOUR HEAD UP. You are not the first to make a mistake and I can guarantee you won’t be the last. Even though sex before marriage is a sin, the baby is not the sin. The baby is a miracle. God trusts you enough to give birth to one of His children and future servants.

Second of all, I know it hurts knowing that you have to raise a child on your own. Look at it this way. That baby will grow and love you no matter what mistakes you have made in the past or will make in the future. The man that is not in your child’s life will never hear that child say to him, “I love you.” That man won’t get kisses at night before bed. That man will never know what it feels like for that child to hug him just because he’s there. BUT GUESS WHAT!! You will experience these joys for the rest of your life. Now aren’t you blessed?

Finally, we must always remember there are some men that are fathering kids on their own in situations where the mother didn’t want the responsibility. I have a great respect for those men because in my opinion, it is harder for them to raise a child on their own. I don’t mean anything bad by that. It is just that we ladies get nine months prior to birth to bond with this child. For nine months we share the same body, the same oxygen and the same food as with the child. We feel the first moments (and their gas…Logan farted when I was pregnant,) When they come out we get this automatic instinct that guys don’t get. They have to establish that bond after the fact. So keep that in mind.

There are guys that stick around for the child and that is wonderful, but for those who don’t, don’t be mad at them. Feel pity for them because they will never have the love from that child. Thank them because without them, there would be no baby to love and care for. So when you tuck you baby in the bed, say a prayer for them because without them, there would be no more of God’s servants.

Now I would like to thank my husband for coming into my life and lightning up my load. He gets to share that same love I was just talking about.Logan and I are so blessed to have him. He is a wonderful husband and the best father a boy could ever have. (Just ask Logan). And If you would excuse me, I feel like shouting and praising God for his blessings. JESUS JESUS JESUS JESUS. WHEW FATHER GAWD!!!

I am unable to sleep so I decided to drop a few lines about something that keeps coming up in my life.

When i was a teen i was horrible. I was terrible to my parents because i wanted to do what I wanted to do. I would stay out all night drinking, smoking, acting stupid just because ” I could.”  I was “grown” so why not. God has brought me a long way since then.

The turning point for me when I was 19. I got pregnant. And I don’t have to tell you how that goes. People ask me all the time,” Why do you act like you don’t care that your son’s daddy is not around?”  and then they go on to say, ” If I were you, I would “make” my child’s dad be in his life. He wouldn’t mistreat my child.” It is not an act. I’m not bitter, mad, sad or ashy. The reason is simply this. God steps in and takes control of every situation. I still got love for Logan’s father because if I hadn’t gotten pregnant, I would still be doing what I was doing before I had Logan. I stopped everything I was doing when I found out I was having a baby. So instead of beatting up on his father and hating his father, I sincerely want to thank him. In a small way he helped me become who I am today. I have a beautiful son that I would do anything for. I have a wonderful husband, and most importantly a relationship with God that is growing by the second. And I have a life that is drama free and I owe some of that to him. God does everything for a reason. There is a reason for every season. This season is for me and family. This is not the season of hatred and drama. I am blessed because I have two families, my biological family(and friends that are family) and my church family. Whom both I am so thankful to God for.

Women of all ages, color, and sizes all over the world have this question at one point in time of their lives. This age old question is “Why do men cheat?” To this question there is no simple answer. There is no single reason. In fact, if you ask ten different men this question you should get about fifteen different answers.

Before I go really deep into this topic, I would like to say that I can’t take full responsibility for this post. I took the liberty of asking my husband of three years to help shed some light on this subject. I asked him, “Why do men cheat?” He had some pretty interesting things to say. These are the reasons he gave:

1. SOME MEN CHEAT FOR MONEY~The “other woman” gives them money or buys them clothes and other things.

2. SOME MEN CHEAT TO IMPRESS THEIR BOYS~Men sometimes joke on the “faithful” guy in the bunch. They tend to call them ” sprung” or what not. Therefore to avoid the ridicule, men cheat to be part of the “in” crowd.

3. SOME MEN CHEAT BECAUSE OF FEAR OF COMMITMENT~Sometimes when men are in a long lasting relationship, they figure that sooner than later the “M” word is coming up soon. That’s right ladies, “Marriage.”  They get the thought in their heads, “This will the last woman I will ever be with for the rest of my life.” Because of this, they go out and cheat as like a ”one last adventure” type deal.

4. SOME MEN CHEAT FOR THE THRILL OF KNOWING THEY COULD GET CAUGHT~This is pretty self-explanitory. It is that risk-taker in them.

5. SOME MEN CHEAT BECAUSE THEY GET DRUNK~When they get drunk, there hormones run wild. They use this as an excuse to go get the first piece of ass they can get.

6. SOME MEN CHEAT BECAUSE THEY ARE ONLY WITH THE “MAIN GIRL” FOR WHAT SHE BUYS HIM OR WHAT SHE DOES FOR HIM~I know this hurts ladies but it is true. Some men are users that have girlfriends that can supply their needs while sleeping with women that they are really attracted to.

I hope that this info was informative as well as entertaining to the ones reading. Hearing these things from my husband was an eye opening experience for me.

Me and My Husband

Today is July 3rd. Last year on this day exactly, I lost my Daddy. I am an only child and he completely spoiled me. The funny thing is that I was not thinking about until some of my family members called to check on me to make sure I didn’t need anyone to talk to. It’s funny how you have something on your mind for days then you finally take your mind off of it and then someone brings it up and you are torn to pieces again.

I started thinking about the little things about him that I miss. I miss the times like when I was pregnant, he would go to college with me just to carry my books for me. When my mom would fuss, he would make fun of her to make me laugh then make me do what ever it was she was fussing about. I remember how I would listen to his heartbeat to get to sleep as a child and even as a teenager when I was sad. The day my dad died, I laid on his chest and there was no heartbeat, no breath. From day one until his death he always called me daddy’s little princess. What was I going to do now that he was gone. 

I just want to say to all of you that have fathers in your lives to hold them close to your heart. All I am left with are my memories of the best father a girl could ever ask for.

My name is Shahlini but I am known to answer to names Shah or DivaShah.  I am 26 years old with a husband and a 6 year old son. I am from Muscle Shoals, AL. I am currently a college student working on a B.S. in Human Resource Management.

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